Getting Ready For Divorce

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I'm so angry. This isn't like me.

We spoke on the phone this morning, early, for about 30 seconds. I hung up on her.

I took my son out to rake leaves in our yard. She came out. "Do this" she told him. I cut her off. She left with a pained expression on her face.

I don't want to be married to her, but I find all sorts of negative emotions coming out of me whenever I see her. She is sending out feelers which traditionally meant it was time for me to kiss up and go back to me being quiet.

I want to be assertive with my wife, not an [censored]. The problem is I haven't the self control to find the delineator.

I just went on a long run through my neighborhood, which took about an hour. She's "going out" until late, so that will give me time to think.

Divorce Busting and going dark doesn't mean being cold or rude. I need badly to find a balance.