Serenity, IF this is MLC, it is a whole different ball game. Truly. The advice you will get over there is completely different than what you might over here, but dealing with a person in MLC is not the same.
So I have taken the advice of a friend and moved my posting over to MLC...
I will still be posting here as well cause I love you guys to much to leave.
With that said -
Can someone please explain to me what good it does to set boundaries if the other person just will not follow them?
This has been a long week that quite frankly I don't have the emotional fortitude to get into right now...
Let's just leave it at H is still batchit crazy over the fact that he was served CS papers and can't believe the nerve of me...
Now I find out from my oldest (yes again) that H isn't coming to see little one tomorrow because he is "on call" at work...
That man hasn't seen our youngest in 2 weeks and hasn't called in God knows when...
He is off today - Can he be bothered? Nope...
I am so angry at him and the way he disregards our son that if we were indeed talking I may tell him where to shove off.
I told him in writing that I will not have visitation discussed between older S and I...
That is between him and I and once again he has oldest S do his dirty work...
OK. You had to have a lawyer for CS papers. How about you ask him about what he is doing? Obviously it isn't right. Time to be a Momma Bear.
I am glad you aren't leaving here!
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
He is all over the dang map and it is driving me insane...
I have been talking to a fellow DBer as well as my Dr. and they think it is more and more like MLC with a healthy dose of PTSD thrown in there just for good measure...
For now - I am just dark unless I have to speak to him...
Though he does still know how to reel me right back in I am not proud to say.
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
I am well my friend - Learning how to detach w/love every day...
Some days are better then others however the more I learn the less bad days I have...
I am trying to GAL and conquer my fears of doing things by myself.
This past weekend I overcame a huge one for me...
I went to the movies by myself...
The movie theater I have a weird fear of - Even if there are others with me ...
I have to sit in the very back row as well as on the end seat - If not I have panic attacks...
I can't enjoy a movie knowing there are people sitting behind me...
I spend the majority of the time glancing out of the corner of my eye...
However as part of my moving forward, I gathered up the courage with the help of a friend, picked a movie I wanted to see (Shutter Island) and went...
I sat in the parking lot for a few minutes because the theater was busy and the line was out into the parking lot and I of course was trying to talk myself into actually getting out of the car and getting in line...
I got in line and the whole time there was a dialogue playing in my head about how I could do this/couldn't do this...
Got to the front, paid for my movie, stood in line for some popcorn (because really is there any better food on earth then movie theater popcorn?) and went into the room where my movie was playing...
Deep breaths my friend - That place was packed...
So packed I couldn't sit in the back row - What to do?..
I had already paid and didn't want to lose the money by walking out...
Found a row that wasn't to packed and still had an aisle seat...
Sat down and to be honest I was shaking...
Ended up texting my Mom because I felt sick to my stomach and my friend who gave me the courage was actually at the movies as well so I couldn't send a text to get some encouragement...
My Mom told me I could do it - To just relax...
No I didn't need to take a pill (for anxiety) to get through a movie I just needed to breathe...
The first 20 minutes were so hard however once I got into the movie, I was perfect.
I walked out of there like I had won a gold medal in the Olympics!
I had finally conquered a fear I have had for years - I did it on my own - And I was grinning like the village idiot!
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
And yes, movie theater popcorn is MY favorite food, period. I think you should be able to go in and buy it even if you don't go to a movie. Hey, they still make money off you, right?
I think I am taking myself to see "Valentine's Day" this weekend...
Bobbi - I agree about buying it whether you see a movie or not - I can eat that stuff everyday lol...If you see Valentine's Day, let me know how it is...It looks like it could be a good one and I am ready for my next adventure.
Have a wonderful day to you both!
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
