WAW has WA History... im scared!

[hitter]

thanks awoken,

i consider our relationship as a marriage, and would so much like to save it - and her to forgive me or forgive us. put things behind and move together....

i try all my best not to discus R. but at some times she brings it up, and i respond. i have to draw away from that.. i know- but its so difficult.

i keept calm yesterday where she was all over me, telling me what i did wrong at 2 years ago, that i never make desiccions, and that i was up to something with the little gardenhouse ... she was yelling and screaming and i now see that i should have said , 2 ok, i hera you, i´ll talk to you later" but i tried to reason and explain that i never would do something about the gardenhouse behind her back.
i should have left, i stayed and let her become very nasty and unfair towards me.

As i read your last words, i´m pretty sure that i confirmed her reasons for leaving me big time... she told me that she could not stand the sight of me, suffercates and so on...

and all i was going to get was some papers for the gardenhouse so we could go on with the selling of it. nothing else. and she just exploded. i know this is a difficult time for her to, and the loss of the house and future is also hitting her big time hard... and i think that i now is getting all her frustration and sorrow spilled all over me.

and yes.. i tink im trying to control har.. wants her to come back nw, see that im sorry and really gets it... and thinks that im doing everything different, but is still doing the stupid dumb same things....

Thakns Awoken for keeping me focused on me....

Hitter