Looking for help with WAW

[mza8]

Getting ready for meeting with W in a few hours. We'll see how it goes.

When I think about my sitch it does upset me that my W will not even consider working on our M right now. I have done nothing but show her my unconditional love in our M. Yes, I was depressed for the past couple of years because of tremedous stress but that doesn't mean that I didn't love my W. Makes me feel like when the going got tough she got going. I read other people's sitch's here and see their WAS at least communicating with them. Some show at least some signs of progress. I wish that I could be at least at that point with my W, at least be talking to each other.

I don't know, maybe my W is angry with me still. By the tone of her voice in her voice mails to me she sounds angry. By her own admission she says that I am a kind hearted person and I am. I would do anything for her. When I allow myself to think about it I keep wondering why she will not give me a second chance. Obviously my depression and what it did to me for the past couple of years doesn't matter to her. That's too bad as I am now such a different person since being on my meds. Too bad she didn't support me like I emotionally supported her. I'm not putting them blame on her, just wish she could see things from my POV like I now see her side of things. If she is having an A I still can't see it, wish I knew what else to do to find out.

Sorry, just venting a bit this morning I guess. I'm still proud of myself for the changes and progress that I have made. Wish me luck today, will let you know how it turns out.