Thanks WhatNow. The MOMS group seems great. They aren't always completely inclusive yet, like they forget I'm there because I'm new sometimes. But I think it will be fun once I become more integrated.
I wasn't really saying "what if" as though it is a question troubling me. It's more...ugh I can't find the right words! It was more an examination of the fact that some part of me is not torn to shreds by his A and the possibility that he will leave us. I guess it was more of a "so what?" feeling.
I've written the letter for him to read while I'm gone on my four day trip. I will type it all up tomorrow morning. Would you please stop by my thread tomorrow and read it? I do value your input, and that goes for all of you here. I know it will need some tweaking, but at least I got my thoughts on paper. He comes home from his school on Monday afternoon, so I sort of want it sealed in an envelope by then to leave for him next Saturday when I leave.
I am willing to take the beating now for writing a letter instead of sitting down with him and talking this same stuff through. But at least in a letter he can't interrupt me, my thoughts don't wander, and if he does ignore me I don't have to be hurt seeing that fact written on his face.
undefeated 24 H 24 S's 4, 2, 1 M 5 yrs
"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." ~Dale Carnegie
The MOMS group seems great. They aren't always completely inclusive yet, like they forget I'm there because I'm new sometimes. But I think it will be fun once I become more integrated.