flowmom | shifting from devastated to rebuilding

[flowmom]

So this is the second week in a row that I've gone out for an evening, leaving H to put the kids to bed while I go out and do something social. Both times were pleasant, but I'm left with an empty feeling afterwards. It's GALing and my friends think it's great, so why do I feel deflated?

The familiar feels uncomfortable. The unfamiliar feels uncomfortable. I guess I'm feeling uncomfortable within myself. Maybe more of that ego-clinging, seeking to hold onto something...when really there's nothing there to hold onto...