the word is out

[courageous wife]

Just journaling here while hopefully everyone is out galing!

My SIL came to take the kids to do something fun. She and I have not talked since DIL told her about her what her brother is doing to his family. She said she has tried calling him and texting him and he has not answered. She is also hurt and upset to be treated this way by him. I did not tell her about the D papers as I feel that my kids need to know first and I still want my H to own his decision to his family. She told me though that she felt I should D him as this is the second time he has done this and obviously doesn't care about the hurt he is causing.

I am not sitting here blubbering tonight! All of you that have given me words of encouragment I am so thankful for! I am prepared to go forward with this D. Yes, I do deserve better than what I have been getting but I am so sad for my kids and worry especially about my S14 who totally idolizes his Dad. I am more scared of being a single parent than I was of the cancer.

Things I will NOT miss about H-not in any particular order.

His moods, his impatience, his constant lies, his selfishness.

The list of things I will miss is a lot longer...will save that for another time!