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[awest1217]

Text H this morning and right after work asking about pizza tonight. He didn't text back until 4:30 (my deadline before I called to myself). He said he wanted to do pizza and is just really frustrated because he still can't find the papers. I tried to be sympathetic, but I am so tired of his whining. He whines about how horrible these owners are (they are shady because they sold the house right out from under the renters who were supposed to move in to make H move), how horrible it is that he can't find the papers, how horrible work is, everything. Then he says he is sorry for coming across as a jerk last night because he didn't mean it that way. The rest of the night he kept asking if I was upset....I wanted to say yes, but couldn't because then I would just go off on him about everything. I just said I am not upset, just a lot on my mind.

I was also upset becuase OW cut H's hair again and it looks horrible. She doesn't fade in the sides so it looks like the old school bowl cut. He always says he likes it when I mention I can fix where she messed up so I have decided this time to not even mention it. I can't say "oh you got a hair cut" because that would mean him saying he was with OW and on top of that me saying I don't like it because she does a terrible job. Oh well...

On one good note, S said something about painting daddy's room (we are goign to paint S's room once we get the tax refund). H said what would you like to paint mommy and daddy's room. A good sign, but he still won't come out and say he is coming home, also he won't say he isn't. There were times tonight that he seemed like he is going to not come home because I mentioned how it would be nice to get some boxes and start moving some of the little stuff now. He just said yeah, but still seemed like I am not sure where I am going to go.

Still very loving, but I definitely can tell he still has no idea what he is going to do, and the sad thing is that he is going to wait until the last minute and honestly have no where to go because he won't want to lose OW, but won't want to lose me either. he said before he left, I love you lots again, but won't make any plans to hang out this weekend. I am not going to push it. Just crazy stuff.