Not really piecing and trying not to jinx it, but

[Freckle6]

Good advice. Time together is helping keep the fears at bay. I don't know if any reassurance from him would really help--after all he promised for better and for worse, till death do us part and we see how that ended up. I will feel better when/if I get an ILY again. I know he does, i'm waiting for him to know he does. And to say it.

Thanks about my kitty. It was one year and two weeks ago that I had to have her sister put down. She had kitty breast cancer and it was 9 days from the time she was diagnosed until she started having trouble breathing. We got these two as kittens when we first moved in together and they went with us from NY to SC for 4 years and then back to NY. They were our babies.

Last year when I found out Mickey (she was "H's" and the other one was "mine"--that was how they gravitated to each of us and he named Mickey and I named Link)was sick I told H and he was just like, "eh" and acted like no big deal. When we used to be away from them for a weekend or something, we would both start carrying on about how much we missed them and now that one was about to die, he acted like I told him I ate a hamburger for lunch. I was so angry! (or to tie our threads in, I was hurt that he was so dismissive about her ).

When we started talking again in the fall, one night we were IMing and started talking about the cats and he thanked me for taking care of Mickey and being with her and said he was crying right then and really missed her. Last year he just flatly said, "thanks for telling me". WTF?

We talked about Link earlier and that unless a miracle happens, her time will probably come soon because her eye looks horrible and isn't responding to anything. My poor baby girl.