I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[talia]

So I took my relationship status off my FB page. Who knew something so simple would make me so sad. I also blocked H from seeing my photos and status updates. I can't bring myself to totally unfriend him. He changed his stuff to show he is married - but it dosen't say to me. I also texted SIL and asked her to take our wedding photos off there. Just seems inappropriate now.

I'm sooooo sad - this all seems so hopeless and I can't stand that thought. Even thought I can't stand H, the thought of no longer having my Marriage is what I'm grieving now. Not the relationship... just having crossed that hurdle in my life. Again.. those BIG things. It feels VERY public to remove my status - but important. I'm not really ready for everything to be so public, but its time to start that. Since it seems I'm not going to stop the D and that I'm starting to embrace this change its time to admit it to other people. Anyway...

Yes - Good GAL next week!! No new shoes - we've never been the same size!

Counter tops are a pretty laminate - to expensive to get anything else. I have very old tiled ones and the tiles are falling off. These try to have the "look" of granite but are WAYYYY less! They look pretty good!

Purging the bad feelings and forcing myself to move forward. We only grow when we are uncomfortable right??



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