Seeing as we had worked together side by side on that bathroom project back in Sept/Oct, and our meeting to do bills in December was amiable enough, I really thought that we could be in the same room, look at technical questions as part of a team, and get through the project OK.
I promised the director I wouldn't bring my own personal drama into this, so tried very hard to just breathe thru this news.
Part of the pain, of course, is hearing how other people get to email and talk to him. Know more about his life than I do.
Part of the pain is I was thinking about tonight as a good demo of how I am moving on (and looking gorgeous).
But--wow--I am totally blown away that HE feels uncomfortable. What does that mean?? I know we can't know that. I know what matters is how I feel. And I want to work on this show and make it look good and have fun doing it.
Wow wow.
Comments??
Aver, I agree w Blowaway, that's how it looks to me. He doesn't have the kahunas to be there, b/c you will. He's having the poor director and other staff make special accomodations so HE doesn't feel uncomfortable. What the you told the director about not bringing in your personal drama was perfect. And I'm sure he/she really appreciated it. You're a class act, Av. Sorry we can't say the same about X.
I understand that feeling of knowing other people get to talk/know more about H's life. I had that feeling when I saw H's profile on my Linked In updates (I'm the one who registered him on there a few yrs. back to help with job hunting) and I saw he has a new email. Which I don't have. It hurts I know.
But I think those folks working w you are going to be impressed by you, and it will get back to the X. Blownaway's right, don't worry about X's motives. He may afraid to see you, he knows he's acted badly & doesn't want to be reminded of this by seeing you. You have far more courage than he does. As far as detachment, you seem to be ahead of him there too. But whatever, keep going along. You were prepared to do it whether he was there or not, so just keep on.
I give you a lot of credit for going ahead with your commitments, a lot of people might feel it's easier to avoid the WA. You should be feeling pretty good about taking the plunge. But then again you don't seem like the type to let anyone keep you from your passion. Keep it up Av!!
Thanks again for your support on my thread. ((((Aver))))
