I had a revelation yesterday about myself that has caused many problems in my M.

I realized that I suffer from anxiety. It started way back before we were married. At the time I didn't know what was my problem but know there was something wrong. The way I handled it was by drinking.

Once we were ingaged that is when my anxiety and stress really sank in. I was worrying about paying for a wedding, buying a home and building a family. All these factors contribututed to me anxiety.
I can't seem to shut my brain down, I'm always worrying about something.

This has caused me to have sleepness nights. I would go to bed with W but after an hour or two I would wkae up and go down on the couch.
This became routine and W did suggest for me to get it checked out but I thought I could handle it.

I realize now my W feels sex starved. I have caused her so much pain b/c of this and she has move out.

I was trying DB on her but nothing seemed to be working.

Yesterday was the first day I realized the beginning and cause of my faults in the M.

I havemade an appointqith an IC to discuss my problems. I hope it's not too late to changes things around but I feel it is.

W and I spoke yesterday(BEFORE revelation) and she asked me
"How much time can she wait for me"?

I know I have to work on my self first.

She wants to set up an appointment for us to get a POST MARITAL agreement.

I I have agreed to this b/c this is what she she wants right now. See explained that if we don't get a divorce then the agreement is null.

I want to tell her:

"I now know what my problem is, I am working on it and I don't kow how long it's going to take me to heal. I understnad if you want to move on with your life. I am sorry I caused you so much pain"

Is this a wise thing to do or should I just take care of myself and not mention my problems??
thanks


Bomb 8/09. Brief piecing 12/10. D-2/12
Two incredible kids D9,S6 Leading new life!
“Success is not to be pursued; it is to be attracted by the person we become."