feel like giving up - pt 2

[luvless]

I just read some of Cutter's stuff and I think I'm going to adopt some of his principles.

I understand my WAH is leaving me feeling like I have no control over my life right now. Well my goal is to have control over MY life. Whether or not I DECIDE I want to forgive my H for his affair is what I will deal with when I FEEL like it.

I took off my wedding rings because my H no longer respects our marriage and it's just a reminder of that. When I saw his bare hand Wed morning and he gave me some story "I left my ring in the car BS" that was it for me. I need to change my negative attitude towards a positive one. Robx - YOU are always in the back of my mind and G - I feel you kicking my butt everytime I don't do for me!

I guess I'm going towards D because I don't believe in separation and I cannot live in limbo anymore. He doesn't want to make a move so maybe I have to for him - as usual. I'm always the one that has to be the responsible party...always have always will be.

Hang with me guys - I'm working on a better attitude cuz Luv doesn't wanna be Luvless anymore.