Calling out the Piecers

[dday101798]

Small updates, journalizing I guess:

S13 is officially on "house arrest" for 30 days. No charges, but a record of battery that iwll go away in the 30 days if he doesn't mess it up.

(x)W and I have just been so worn out with all this. Kind of creates a scary feeling in a way becuse we're just both exhausted and falling asleep on each other early. We had been having a few more drinks than we should to "unwind" and made a request of each other Monday to cut back and we both have. I'll only have a beer and my smoke when I get in from work and that's it, she'll have a glass of wine along with me, and that's it for her. Teamwork there.

However, with the exhaustion as mentioned, comes lack of intimacy which is taking it's toll on both of us. We were both dead set to have a "active" night last night, but ended up working late, so we ate dinner late, and she hadn't slept the night before when I went by my cousin's for dinner and . So, after I cleaned up the table from dinner she was already asleep on the couch, so I figured I'd let her sleep and clean up the kitchen and watch the news, ended up falling asleep myself.

We got up at about 2am and went to bed, but she still seemed exhausted, so I cuddled her to sleep and that was it. Well, this morning she siad she feels depressed and like I don't love her. I stated my case and she was accepting of my reasoning. We are definately getting out tonight and doing something. We've been 'grounded' for almost a month now, time to live it up a bit, have some fun, relax and then come home and get crazy.

I'm understanding her better and better every day, and really learning the person she became as a WAW. In doing so, that person isn't shelled away, she's still there and very much a part of (x)W's persona, pretty scary in it's own right, but I'm learning how to keep that person at bay and satisfied, kind of like keeping a wild tiger as a pet sometimes.