Sounds like you're doing OK! Good on you! Stosney says that when you're in touch with your core value, you cannot do wrong! So stay in touch with your core value, always, and there is no reason to be afraid of what you might say, or how to put it! Don't take anything personal, especially what your STBX might think. Nothing that other people do is because of you. It is because of themselves.
I hope you'll keep going..."walking on, and getting stronger each day."
"Always go straight forward, and if you meet the devil, cut him in two and go between the pieces." - William Sturgis, clipper ship captain, 1830's.