Just want my H back

[talia]

HHH,
I agree with the everyone here! You are definitely on the right track! You keep doing what you think is best for you and you can't go wrong.

My suggestion for waiting till your in CA was half kidding. My point - although I think you get it - was that if you aren't ready to pull the trigger now you don't have to. If you felt waiting was best for you, there would be the added benefit of making him go to CA for D. That's all Whatever tough love method you feel works for you will be the right one.

On a personal note - I feel the same way you do about filing. I'm at a point where I kinda want to file and just be done with it. At the same time I refuse to let H get away with turning my life upside down AND making me end it because he's a coward. Maybe its vindictive... but now that we are moving toward D... HE has to MAN UP!! Just my take on the cowardice...

I think you have a very very clear picture of who H is now and who he has been for the last 15 months. I feel like you have come soooo far from your down times when I first "met" you.

Keep up the PMA!!

T