I've hit a wall.. Now what?

[crushed_v95]

I hope you ladies don't put us guys on the boards in that same category as the WAH's.

So funny to be here and have daily epiphanies. I'm about to walk away but find myself with much in common with the left behind wives.

I've worked and raised the kids, and have been given no credit. My wife finds me unappealing, unattractive, a nag, a wet dishrag. She can't wait to get out on the weekends with her mother, chatting men up at the casino and bar, while I serve as babysitter.

She initiates divorce, then backpedals when I say I'll support it. She gives me the silent treatment. She screams, calls me an idiot (I'm far more intelligent than my wife in raw cognitive ability, but I really am a moron for sticking with her).

I've been faithful, loving, supported her in her career. I've also been able to see my flaws in the mirror as I read this board though. I've worked long hours, been negligent, haven't respected myself enough to set boundaries. I clearly don't value myself if I've let her get in the habit of acting this way. I guess I've been terrified of my kids growing up in a broken home (that was my experience).

There is something to be said for self-awareness, and this forum has provided it.