What should I do?

[ericmsant2]

Thanks Mach1 -I kinda of feel a little like an onion these days. A few more questions I ask myself...Okay maybe these are additional goals..

1) Can I forgive myself of am I a little too confortable in the role of victim?
2) The fear of loosing my wife is probably a bigger sign that I have some insecurity issues to deal with. What R they and how do I deal with them?
3) We all claim to be patient...can I REALLY be patient? Can I live in a world that I do not control? The reality is that I have to - the only choice I have is to work torward acceptance or continue to try and control and fail.

Okay - I'm getting way to deep here.