Update Again. Had first visit with therapist yesterday. It was kind of ironic that many of the things she said I had heard already from these very boards. But I did feel better after talking to her as it gave me someone to sound off on some of the things I have been going through and gave me a bit of assurance that things will be ok. She wants me to come back next week with at least 2 things I have done to make myself happy and show that I am taking care of myself. The list she gave me of suggestions had "Blow some bubbles" Im going to stop at walmart on the way home from work today and buy some just to see what happens.
Wife still not speaking to me. She is upset that I took half of our state refund to open my own account, wait till she realizes that I have also taken half of our federal return and put it into my new account. Makes me wonder if this whole time I havent just been a breathing ATM for her. I know this is the wrong forum for this, but I need to start looking at if I really want to try and save my marriage or to just move on. Coming home to a tomb is not the must pleasant thing in the world. Is this just a phase I wonder? Is it normal to wonder if you just wouldnt be happier starting over? Guess I need to read DR again now that I seem to be thinking with a clearer mind now. Thank You all again for the support.
M:40 W:40 D: 21 S: 18 D: 17 Md: 18 years -1/19/2010 W wants out -6/03/10 "Live for today, for tomorrow is promised to no-one.."
