My only expectation is eventually we can reconcile
Have you read my threads....I have a new one with links...Doing it my way in MLC. Read it....word for word. The expectations above is only killing you....the only expectations you should have are the ones you control...period. Pay particular attention to the posts in the fourth link.
You are killing yourself...causing yourself pain...don't you see that?
GAL'd alittle bit last nite, listened to a coverband, played a poker tournament.
Today..I cried and hurt a lot, a memory comes into mind and man the emotions whoa, like a freight train. Other than the crying today was a R/R day, didn't do much of anything.
My mom called, don't know how the subject came up, but she said she had ADHD, I said what?when did you find that out, she said yrs ago when found out brother had it.
Hmmm that explains some things and I didn't know until tonight she had it, I just thought like you guys think of me, she sure talks a lot and doesn't listen:)
I don't know why I can't let the past go, I think I've analyzed every mistake I made.
It hurts we missed out on a lot, but the time we had together, when we were together, it was fun. Those thoughts pop up major ouch.
Then an insult or attack from denial through this period and ouch.
Add in the no kids and bam, just something I need to keep working through.
Find out tomorrow if D is going to be suspended and meet with cnslr that D slanted everything to.
lost bball game yesterday, soon to be x father in law was there, he never comes into town, he has not autistic but similar, he's just odd anyway, he said he'd email me pics he took at game, said ok, he said no animosity towards me that wife doesn't talk to him about it, but she's his daughter, said hey she's the love of my life, if could undo this or what lead to this would fix it in a heart beat.
wife didn't say a word to me, walked by her twice and I wasn't mean, I just acted as if she wasn't there, so no I didn't say hi either, a friend of mine came to game and she did say hi to him though and of course my dad.
my soon to be ex filaw did mention, wife's said your families' been very nice to her,said fil u don't know, ur 3 hrs away and have a 5 min convo with her once a month, none of us like this, but we have a idea as to what lead to this divorce, she is ur daughter, don't want the pics from you, you got married, i sent u something u didn't reply or say thanks,i didn't go into to much detail with him, just said i didn't know there was a problem with our marriage until 2 wks after gpa died and wife said maybe she didn't grieve enough and she was very angry with me, that is the closest I came to bashing her. we had some other small talk, he asked about business told him i wasn't in sales anylonger, nothing too specific, like i said he has whatever this autism not autism deal, so he's hard to talk to anyway. If it weren't for a shot gun wedding he wouldn't have been married to wifes mom. He worked a lot on purpose and had a lot of gfriends on the side, that's what ended a 25 yr marriage for he and mil.
i bash her in my mind or to the dog quite a bit, but in public or to family, friends, no. Then i remember, she can't control it.
Your mom has ADHD, you have it to. Does your D have it also? My W belongs to an organzation called CHADD. You get a magazine every month and the website that can help you deal with ADD. Something you might want to consider for your daughter.
Hang in there. I think I am starting to see that you might be getting it. Its hard I know.
Keep hanging in there. ADD does run in families....and if FIL has something similar to Autism I would bet is it Aspergers (spelling). Which really points to your kids having something...also shows that she is probably much smarter than her grades will represent.
Snodderly had made a post that those that are guilty file the quickest.
What kind of guilt?
Oh something else, what if my wife is menopausal.
I didn't remember it until recently but when were 18-22, her periods, maybe once every 4 or 5 months.
Her mom took her to a Dr. She told me that the Dr had told her then that she was going through early menopause and we would have difficulty having children, now married her anyway and we had children.
It wasn't until she was 35 that I knew what PMS was, but something else that was wierd, spring of 08 her breasts leaked clear fluid, sense then she's now allergic and has asthma.
When this all started I got a book on menopause, some fit, some didn't.
I just watched the video on DU's thread, no I will not be suggesting menopause, I did that back in August.
did fire up the family locator on sprint though, just so i could see where she might be occasionally.
she knows, sprint sends a text to all family members.
wife is on a different plan so no worries, never thought about spying, maybe i should have:)
Be careful, you could really come off looking like an @$$ to her.
Yes if your D is out of hand then this may be needed. However, if you have to take it this far then why does she even have phone priveleges? Who's paying for it?
