I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

[Quart9]

Bond - yeah it seems like W does not give an F about me. No, I don't like wife controlling me or possibly banging some other dude. And yes, I see how it does come across like I want someone to validate my not moving back home, and it look like the attny gave it to me. But there is nothing more that I want in this world than to be back there whether she wants me there or not - really - almost to where I would risk a restraining order.

I would love to see her even if it just in passing. I would love to go back there and tell her to kiss my a$$ I am moving back in. I would love to! love to! establish boundaries and tell her to stop seeing douche/OM. I would love to catch that MF'er over there and repaint the F'ing walls brain matter grey - no what I'm say'n?

And actually the attorney asked me why I wanted to move back and I told her that I felt like my wife was controling, I had been too passive/maniputaled, and I wanted my self respect back (aka huevos). She told me that if that was the case I should file the petition first and let my wife get served (like you just suggested).

I dunno what I am going to do. I have to think about this some more.