WAW has WA History... im scared!

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she was here to discuess the little gardenhouse.
I started in a nice way, trying everything my coach said.
She was just pure mad, an got even madder. telling me that with my attitude it seem like i didn´t want the house enough.

ohh is she wrong!

But she wants it too.

I tried to end the conversation, but she wanted an answer.. wanted me to make a desission. she wanted to meet at my house, so it was difficult for me to leave, eventhough i told her thát we couldn´t get any further right now.

then she started crying, telling me how much she wants the house, and that im not the only looser in this game.

her crying made me cry and we ended up crying about or losses, with arms around each other..

then i made my big mistake.. told her that we might be able to look at R. and not having to loos "us" and house...

She told me in a cold an firm way that that never would happend, because she would never allow it. Never allow anyone to hurt her so much again.
i told her great, we both changed.. thats positive.
But the she came again with the no, never won´t happen forget it...

im so hurt, will not sell the house and then again she made me call the boss at the comunity where the house is, and ask her what the sellingprice would be for the house.

GF also wants a new house in the same area so she is not out of my face and will not be. she also got an arpartment 200 m from ours, and is still seeing what at the beginning was my friends...

why won´t she leave me alone and leave everything behind and go on in her new life... ??

anyway.. i walked her out the door, i had an appointment with a friend, to my car and drove away. got out of car as i passed her, wiped snow of windows, huged her and drov again. .. was going to gazstation but forgot money, turned around, and there she was, right in front of me, in her car.. i was going the same way as her, but she stopped, looked at me and i wawed.. she called me on the phone and asked if i was following her??? and i could hear that she didn´t belive a word of my expalnation. i didn´t even see her before she got out of the car...

so now i have cried, begged, asked her to start over, followed her and did other things wrong in her eyes.... so i might as well give up i think...

she never belives a word im saying anyway....

hope to hear from some with good adwise