Piecing Without Transparency

[addie]

Thanks for your support Dday and Kalni. I know both of you are going through a lot too.

This is the first day in about 2 weeks that I've come straight home after work. My dad is more stable but his condition is still serious. He had a feeding tube installed. The doctors basically recommended doing nothing and let nature take its course eventhough my dad still had some cognitive abilities - he recognizes everyone, understands what we say and can still communicate verbally to some extent. He's much more alert since the feeding tube, now that he can get his meds and nutrition. We don't know how long he'll live with the feeding tube but any additional time we get with him we will treasure.

H's support has been lukewarm throughout all this. He is still very much in selfish mode, very focused on his own needs. I've been questioning why I allowed him to come back.