flowmom | shifting from devastated to rebuilding

[flowmom]

I decided to GAL by going for my second post-S run. I've been pampering a cold that I was worried would turn to pneumonia, but I realized that I had to get out. I also decided to GAL by not allowing my thoughts to torture me while I was running, so instead I listened to Buddhist teachings.

She started talking about how the ego's insecurity is seeking something to cling onto, but the nature of reality is ever-changing, open, fluid. How the insecurity feels like dying. I sat down in the field overlooking the mountains, the ocean, the blossoming cherry trees...and I sobbed. Raw grief.