Hey nik, You have been through so much, and yes you are grieving the loss of your M, it is as if someone died. Can I make a suggestion here......don't rush things, allow yourself to experience the different stages of grieving as they come. Denial, Anger, Bargining, Depression, Acceptance.
Originally Posted By: nikblondiew
Even if my H did, it'd be quite hard to go back given all the cheating, drinking, etc. MANY MANY changes would have to occur.
This sounds like denial or barginning but definitely not acceptance yet. I think it is a very good idea to write the letter but you do not have to send it right away or at all. Lolal is right, this is going to take awhile. I don't think you want to send a letter saying this is it and then change your mind. Give yourself time, if it is over for real then it will still be over in couple of months or a year from now.
Prayers for you and your son.
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