Stop wishing your life away. Wishing your life away leads to an awful lot of wasted time and frustration. If you wish you never met your stbx then you would not have your daughter.
You protest a bit too much. I don't believe for a second you don't want your stbx back and no matter how many times you say it, it doesn't make it true.
The more time you waste thinking about what your stbx "deserves" (EX: she does not deserve her child) the less time you have to work on you. It is not up to you to decide what your stbx deserves or not. If things are that dire then get some PROFESSIONAL assistance with co-parenting, individual parenting and a formal custody agreement. You are making this a HUGE issue when there are many, many avenues to help you create an appropriate and healthy framework for your daughter.
If your IC doesn't not offer you solid guidance, is not teaching you the tools to create solutions in your life and only "listens" it is time to find a new IC. Until you obtain the tools to deal with life in a different way you will never be able to address your demons. Make a very detailed list of what you need from your IC and let him/her know your goals. If he/she is unable to counsel you in an effective manner to reach those goals find a C who is.
Getting involved in another R at ANY LEVEL is the most foolish thing I have heard in a while.
Several pages have been filled with advice and the ONLY positive response you have shared is one in which you relished the idea of bashing OM.
<pressing the applause button>
The only reason that I am posting in your thread is because I have to believe that you have a kernel of strength that you can use to grow up and become the father that your precious, fragile D3 needs and deserves.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
