I think I will need to give it to him. To completely have closure so he knows how everything has made me feel/affected me. Then I can close the chapter so to speak. I know he will always have to be in my life which is a double edge sword almost because of our son.
I just haven't felt like this, this bad/sad in some time. I knew this would happen though as the decision to end the marriage neared. Even if my H did, it'd be quite hard to go back given all the cheating, drinking, etc. MANY MANY changes would have to occur. I really don't spend too much time thinking about that anymore because I can't control him. It's his life. His choices.
Thanks for all the support, and hug today Lol, I need it oh so much
