Thank you, all. Things are quiet and calm. No R talks, just being in the moment. Aside from the fact that I want to rape him in his sleep all is well. He. He. How is that for class and grace? Sorry, it is just that he is so close, and yet still far away. Patience.
Must. Have. Patience.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
Aside from the fact that I want to rape him in his sleep all is well. He. He. How is that for class and grace? Sorry, it is just that he is so close, and yet still far away. Patience.Must. Have. Patience.
Wifey, you're a real hoot. But serious, here ,too. (believe me, I know and understand
ps: Today, Puppy suggested to the moderators that we need a "standing ovation" emoticon
I suggest a "horny beyond all belief" emoticon, too!
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Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Sorry, it is just that he is so close, and yet still far away. Patience.
Must. Have. Patience.
I've had a couple of particularly vivid dreams about lovemaking with my wife recently. The first one, I half-convinced myself that something did happen in the middle of the night.
So yeah, I know how that goes...
Me: 44, Wife: 39 M: 17 years T: 20 years Bomb on 08/25/09 1/13/10: MC started 1/28/10, 2/8/10: More bombs 8/28/10: Wife moved out No talk of D, no movement
Sorry, it is just that he is so close, and yet still far away. Patience.
Must. Have. Patience.
I've had a couple of particularly vivid dreams about lovemaking with my wife recently. The first one, I half-convinced myself that something did happen in the middle of the night.
So yeah, I know how that goes...
Me too, though mostly non-sexual. Half-asleep, I would feel her or feel her move or wake up thinking she had just said something. For months! I would sleepily reply and then waking up a bit more, just kind of say, "that didn't just happen, did it?" Or, "I forgot: you're not there anymore. You're not here anymore." Sad.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
Just a real quick update. Things are still pretty quiet here. We are still at the "one day at a time, we are working on being friends" stage. That does mean cold showers and a lonely bed at night, but I continue to focus on being happy he is here.
In case anyone wonders, I have to really concentrate, because his door does not lock from the inside. I have not jumped the man yet, and God willing I will refrain from sleepwalking. : )
Valentine's Day was not a highlight of our time together, because he "forgot" it was Valentine's Day. I told him I didn't need a card, just effort, and he would have to be deaf, dumb and blind to have forgotten. It is on tv, in the paper, on the radio, and in every store you walk into.
He did take me to dinner, replaced my hard drive for me in my computer, does things with me every weekend, etc. Well, anyhow, I just focus on patience.
I have been really busy with my classes. Lots of homework! Thankfully that takes a lot of my time and focus. I will try to check up on some of you. Sorry I haven't been any help to anyone lately, just trying to stay under the radar and keep my focus on patience.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
If you are just friends stick to making cookies and forget the striptease.
Sorry, I just had to throw that out there. (Long story.)
Maybe you should have combined the two?! use the stage name Gingersnap.
Sorry, couldn't help myself. Glad you are doing OK.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
Glad things are progressing. Keep the expectations at zero and stay on your path. We will be coming up to your area for graduation in MAY. Hope both are sich's are better by then!
If you are just friends stick to making cookies and forget the striptease.
Sorry, I just had to throw that out there. (Long story.)
Maybe you should have combined the two?! use the stage name Gingersnap.
Sorry, couldn't help myself. Glad you are doing OK.
Cheers
Coach, that was good for a big belly laugh. Thanks! By the way, he loved the cookies. Oatmeal raisin, his favorite.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
use the stage name Gingersnap. 
