how do i keep my hope alive?

[trytryagain]

thanks, talia and pearl. i know i need to look for signs of truth in his WORDS by watching his ACTIONS. i'm thrilled that he sought the help of an IC on his own, without any pushing from me, and i'm doing my best to stand back and give him all the space he needs.

i'm giving MYSELF some space as well, and looking forward to a week long service trip to new orleans in a few weeks. told the H about my trip and he said he was excited but sad (not sure why), and that i'd always had such a big heart and desire to give back. those are definitely good points about me, and i'm trying to focus more on those good things and bring them out in myself more.

it's very hard to not come to expect anything from someone who you've vowed your life to, though, isn't it? i guess i should see his almost daily contact as a sign of something i'm doing right instead of focusing so much on what he's saying in his emails. at least he's emailing, right?

thanks for trying to help keep me on track. it can be a full time job!