How do I find myself.......and Live for ME??

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Thank you! I have some back issues, so cannot run----never really been a runner, but used to run some. I do like to walk, and 2 years ago a friend and I walked the breast cancer 3-day in San Diego. Things were just starting with H then, we were going to MC. He was still living at home, and I needed the training and talking with my friend to help with my sanity (although I didn't mention anything to her about what was going on until after the walk). I also thought (in the back of my mind) that H would be impressed if I could complete the 60 mile walk----that I might get his attention. It was very hard to do, and when I got done I thought "if I can do that, I can do anything." But, I wasn't prepared for what happened a few months later----H telling me he wanted a divorce.

After training for the 3 Day, walking it, and the depression that set in afterwards, I went completely sedentary with only failed attempts to get back in to exercise. I know the weight gain, the sedentary lifestyle and the lack of muscle tone has only compounded how hard this has been on me. However, I am at least 6 (maybe longer) weeks in to an exercise program that I can stick to. I may have to look in to the podcasts too.....my sister gave me an i-pod for my last birthday (not that I know how to use it yet). I am not making any progress on the weigh issue............AND, I will take all the suggestions I can get!