I don't talk about it much, because until the last week or so, I hadn't thought about it much. I don't have contact with her, and other than the obit nightmare and having to see her at the funeral, she really doesn't exist in my mind for the most part.

My dad said had he known the birth certificate was going to change, he would not have done it. But I reminded him at that time, we really didn't know how she was. For all intents and purposes, she was supposed to be the loving mother and wife.

I am not sure if this is exacerbated by the impending divorce, and it is just easier for me to be pissed at her, because it saves me from being pissed at the SG for being such a jackass.

Methinks I have to ponder this...

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..