I will not kiss her a$$ anymore. I have apologized in the past and told her I realize what I did wrong. She said she was sorry for hurting me one time and a couple days later it was "nothing has changed, ILYBNILWY, we'll be OK it will just take time." It will take time, I understand, but only if she is willing to put forth the effort. I will continue with what I have been doing, try to be patient, and prove to myself, and her, that I can change and will be OK whatever she chooses. I can't make the choice for her. I am here if she wants me and our family and will make changes herself with her sitch and commit to us but I can't do it for her.
I have started reading the DR book and will finish it before I make another phone appt with Dotty.
It is getting easier as time goes by. I can't stop thinking about what it would do to the kids. I can only do my part and be the best Dad and best person I can be. I know there is a lot of room for improvement, and being a better person will make me a better father and husband. Do Not Be A Whimp!
