But I've been having one of the hardest weeks I've had in a while. Been feeling really sad, heartbroken, grieving I guess....I know what I need to do, I've feared and dreaded it for so long, it means letting go for good. I had so many hopes and dreams for he and I, our family. Have for years and years together. I do not want to go backwards, since I've come so far so I'm fighting myself I feel. But I know I have to work through these emotions and feel them as they come. I'm thinking about writing him a final letter, I am not sure if I will give it to him or not but I think it needs to be done to release it all.
