TTA, Dropping the rope means NO EXPECTATIONS. There is always pull back from a WAS when something good happens - this is a great example. You CANNOT expect anything from H and clearly you are/did. Believe nothing they say and half of what they do. He SAID he wanted to see you - so BELIEVE NOTHING THEY SAY.
No expectations means you are cool to spend time IF it works for you and he asks; but if he dosen't ask - OH WELL! If you are going to make it through the long hall of this you NEED to start doing this for yourself. Just look at it this way - these could be the last moments you will spend with H so you are going to enjoy them as they come and be happy with that.
We've been telling you - at least most of us have been telling you - to STOP mind reading. You CANNOT read into emails - they are inherantly without emotion. STOP STOP STOP. You will make yourself crazy doing that. Please don't listen to people on here who keep telling you to think about what H is thinking or feeling. YOU DON'T KNOW and you can't possibly know. There is no magic formula for reading into things and coming up with whats going on in his head.
This has all been so fast for you and you are light years ahead of most of us at this point in our situations. I'm super proud of you for EVERYTHING you are doing. You have no idea how long it took me to get to where you are. You SHOULD still miss H - you spent the last few years with him as your main companion. Its OK to feel sad about this - you will for a while. Just don't let those feelings get into your head.
(((TTA)))
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