was out of town yesterday and so wanted to post my latest learing session about myself.
was speaking with W in bed night before last - simpley asked her if my negative attitude was one of the major factors leading to where were are today, told her i want to improve myself as to not keep repeating the same things and possibly hurting others like i did her.
after a bit she looked at me and said it was a part of it (as i assumed there were many factors) but said one of the largest factors was actually that she felt i was controlling her life...not letting her be herself.
wow...i never knew that she even felt like that....i could tell by her look in her eyes that she was waiting for me to get mad and even have something spiteful to say.
just told her "thank you" and i am sorry my actions made you feel like that, i know i have a bit of a jealous side and i can see how it may have been smothering to her.
i then went for my now nightly run, as the snow fell i started to smile....i felt i was getting more in control of myself (even if it too the W to help point it out)
i want her to be herself, not what i think she should be - with that said which book would be a better read to help me better my controlling side?
Beyond CoDependence CoDependent No More
M-37 W-36 S-11, S-9, D-4 PA exposed 3/13/10 10/19/10 moving on... most up to date sit
