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[awest1217]

I feel much better today, and it hsn't snown more so hopefully I get a day of no shoveling. I slept with a heating pad on my back so that was helpful.

On the S front, he has been sleeping in his big boy bed now for a week. He did wake up early this morning and want to come to bed with me, which I let him. I think that over the past week, we haven't had a lot of mommy/S time so he is missing me. Between spending extra time with H and doing house hold chores, plus the extra fun stuff that is coming up, we haven't had any really together time so I think he just needs some of that tonight. Yesterday, he was driving me crazy while I was trying to do dishes so I said "just leave me alone while I do the dishes, you are driving me crazy." He said "mommy I just love you". Just melts my heart. Tonight is definitely a S/mommy night, and we have the weekend to spend time together.

With H, this morning the car stalled again and the check engine light came on like it did in December I think it was. I text H and told him, after I fixed things like I did before. The car is running, but the light is still on so if it is tonight after work it will have to go into the mechanic. H was nice and reminded me what he did before and said have a good day with i love you and x's and o's. Then I got a text that asked when the car insurance and life insurance were due. Those were the bills I got during the three weeks of nothing and I am not going to pay them or remind him (especially since he may not come home...he has to learn). I said the car insurance was due the 16th and the life insurance in January. I was driving so it took me a while to text back and he said he was sorry and understands if I am upset. I said it wasn't my problem, they are his bills not mine. He then said how he doesn't understand why he can't pay bills on time. His credit card bill is late every month, same with his phone line, and other things. I said I know he is capable and just has to do it and said I love you.

I know he can't pay bills and if we get a divorce he will have horrible credit because he can't pay bills on time. Oh well...it won't be my problem. I don't think he realizes how much work not coming home will be. It would be so much easier to get rid of OW then have to go through a D. I mean finding a place to live, moving all his junk from the house, filing his own taxes, getting his own car insurance, changing his address on everything....and I am sure so much more. Is it really worth it just so he can "stay friends" with OW? I guess we will find out in 3 weeks.