I think I'd rather be dead than this- WAW

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Gnosis - Thanks for directing me to robx's threads. I am reading them now (a lot of great info to read and absorb) and I see a lot of parallels between he and I and the struggles with being a nice guy/push over.

Thank you Sénior Bond for your reply. I am trying to look at moving back as just "moving back home." Its like in the DR where it says you should act positive like you will get a postive response. I want it to be that way.

I saw my IC tonight and told her my plans to move back. She spent about 10 min trying to convince me not to. It was odd because she rarely gives me large chunks of advice or feedback - she usually just tells me to talk and gives me little snidbits of feedback. She did encourage me to see an attorney though - which I am doing in the morning.

I guess my wife is home from her trip. I went by our apt after my IC appt (like the good stalker I am) and low and behold the lights were on, garage was open, etc. Am I wasting my time with all of this because she has pretty well detatched from me. I sent her a text last Fri to see if she had left and got no reply. I checked the bank account on Sun to see that she paid to check her bagagge and got a shuttle ride the airport that morning. I heard nothing from her while she was gone and she has made no effort to tell me she made it back ok. I guess I'm retarded for thinking she might have the courtesy to do this. I have not and will not call her or text her to see if she made it home.

Speaking of that, couldn't she see my moving back in as pursuing her? When I do move back in, and let's say she actually lives there for more than 15 mins after I'm back, am I then supposed to detach from her?