Trying to move on

[ClingingToHope]

Strangely angry today and despairing about money.

Had a scare at work. I thought perhaps I was breaking the computer policy by bringing a laptop home every day and keeping it here.

I can justify it because I'm the stat guy and do have to work at home, but truthfully I probably use it 90 percent for personal stuff.

I think I'm OK, but it did put the fear of God into me. Losing my family and my job would be too much.

Then the thing with D7 happens and that brightened the day a bit. But W calls to tell me we have two parent teacher conferences on Feb. 25, which also happens to be D10's birthday.

D10 also has a performance that night. So let's see, I'll have to see W three times that day.

Hopefully I'll be in the right mindset. I haven't been shining lately because I don't feel like doing that part of DBing right now. I mean, this is a person who threw me out of my house for no good reason, lives in our home while I'm in a apartment always having to say shhhhh and be quiet and no yelling and then she's going to dig for every dime so that I have to spend the next 10 years living from paycheck to paycheck hoping I don't get sick so I can take my girls on a vacation.

I'm just angry tonight and feeling a lot of despair.

I just sooooo want her to feel some of this pain.

I also feel like I'm coming down with something and I have a good weekend planned with the girls.

Ugggghhhhhh.