Tonight's quick journaling of today's recurring thoughts.

Actively, determinedly thinking positively works. And grows.

As I told my IC last week, "I keep wondering when this NMA will 'go away' and 'become' more of a PMA." And then I realized what a passive stance that was! A waiting for instead of a making happen.

So, fifteen months of pain, negative thoughts and victimhood, begone!
It's working. But it's a constant effort to be aware of the automatic and instantly reframe it with something positive or with its exact opposite. It'll take time. But it's begun.

I feel good about myself, my life, my future.

A couple of recurring painful moments today as I realized - felt - how much I miss my stepson and stepdaughter!

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac