You have joined a frustrated, needlessly-growing group. I gave up a short while back.
But I had to chime in when this jumped out at me:
I'm sure that we would all agree that our sitches, whether somewhat anticipated or "bombed" out of the blue have been the most painful experiences ever visited upon us.
That said, nsw, while I don't deny you your pain, here is one of your biggest problems, at least the way I read it in your poem (which I've "condensed" for effect).
