Thought I'd post this poem here rather than sending to the ex. She wouldnt care anyway...just more ammo for her. I wouldnt mind posting it on my Facebook page...though since my ex isnt one of my friends and none of the rest of them know my ex aside from her sister, I dont think it would do anything positive. (Unless her sister read it and doesnt know about the OM yet. Then it might mean something to someone besides me.)
I知 in pain.
I知 in pain for you leaving me. I知 in pain for you breaking up our family. I知 in pain for you not telling me something was wrong until it was too late. I知 in pain for you not believing people can change immediately and the changes can be lifelong. I知 in pain for you not sincerely giving me a chance to prove myself. I知 in pain for you having a child with me when in the end you wouldn稚 commit to our family. I知 in pain for you believing what others tell you about a child not suffering when parents split up. I知 in pain for you getting me to ever trust you. I知 in pain for you not trusting me. I知 in pain for you using me. I知 in pain for you cheating on me with a man that痴 15 years older. I知 in pain for you talking to him when you should have been talking to me. I知 in pain for you turning to him because he has money and could give you nice things I couldn稚 right now. I知 in pain for you for you forcing our daughter to be around him. I知 in pain for you scheduling family events and having him sit in where I should be sitting. I知 in pain for you being my world and then pulling my world out from under me. I知 in pain for you thinking I should be ok with everything...and that none of this should be affecting me. I知 in pain for you provoking me and then using my reactions against me. I知 in pain for you emotionally abusing me with the silent treatment. I知 in pain for you trapping me here when I could have been a success elsewhere. I知 in pain for you taking away 7.5 years of my life that I'll never get back. I知 in pain for you not having any remorse or shedding one single tear over what you have done. I知 in pain for you ever saying you loved me...when in the end the words were as meaningless as our life together. I知 in pain.
she does this, it shatters me...and then I'm the one that has to pick up the pieces and pay for counseling/prescriptions. in her mind it's my fault that I feel the way I do...it shouldn't affect me at all. I should be able to just accept it and keep on going.
that's like someone ripping the pipes out of your house but expecting water to still flow to everything.
As a new geezer (I turned 40 on Monday) I must say that there is something *seriously* wrong with a dude my age chasing a 26-year old married mother of a three year old baby. I mean, what do they talk about exactly? He sounds like a total creep.
I have female friends that are this age. I think of them almost as daughters (I could have conceived them at 14, after all), and it'd be a little disturbing to envision anything physical.
I dunno man. I think she's messed up too. The world is full of messed up people. I wish I could figure myself out, then maybe I'd understand the rest of the stories here.
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
As a new geezer (I turned 40 on Monday) I must say that there is something *seriously* wrong with a dude my age chasing a 26-year old married mother of a three year old baby. I mean, what do they talk about exactly? He sounds like a total creep.
yeah...she really doesnt have many friends her own age. she mostly has friends in their late 30s thru their 60's...the bar crows that hangs out where her father does. I have no idea what they talk about...although I do know they tlaked about her and I at some point...because when I talked to him he knew details of our situation that no one but her and I knew.
Originally Posted By: crushed_v95
I have female friends that are this age. I think of them almost as daughters (I could have conceived them at 14, after all), and it'd be a little disturbing to envision anything physical.
you think it's disturbing...when I first found out, I couldnt stop dry heaving...and every time I thought about them together...about him touching her...I would begin to dry heave again. Fortunately thats stopped.
But yeah...I dont get it either. All I can think of is that he found out she was vunerable and having R problems and took advantage of the opportunity.
You have joined a frustrated, needlessly-growing group. I gave up a short while back.
But I had to chime in when this jumped out at me:
I'm sure that we would all agree that our sitches, whether somewhat anticipated or "bombed" out of the blue have been the most painful experiences ever visited upon us.
That said, nsw, while I don't deny you your pain, here is one of your biggest problems, at least the way I read it in your poem (which I've "condensed" for effect).
The pain will subside and clarity will take its place. The pain might return, in lesser waves, but it will subside more and more often.
Your little girl is your priority now. That's my thought, anyway.
Everything I'm doing now is for my kids. I found that on a sig here. "What is good for my kids is good for me".
They will be here long after you, the adulteress and that pathetic cradle robbing homewrecker are worm food. Think about that. She's the gift you're giving the world. Heal her and you heal yourself.
Until tomorrow...
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
