Your feelings sound completely justified to me. You are vulnerable and alone right now, and we are supposed to count on the legal system and L's to help protect us in sitches like this. That doesn't always happen. You want someone to say, "relax LFA, I will handle this for you. I will make sure your needs are taken care of and you will be ok." Kinda like what we W often like our H's to do for us... so when abandoned by H, we hope for that somewhere else.
But... part of your journey has been to discover how STRONG and AMAZING you are... YOU, LFA, all.by.yourself!
You ROCK! Look at all you have come through and how you have taken care of yourself. You are going to be ok with or without a good L. (but having said that, if this one truly does not advocate for you, fire her a*$ and get a new one!)
And, yes... get the GAL going again! You need to have some fun, girl!
