My own personal plan was to wait until our kids were all grown before leaving her. I just can't do it. I always envisioned them out of college with families and then I'd have a few years left to have some peace. In the better times I hoped that she'd settle down as she got older, come to appreciate me. It's not going to happen. I certainly know that now. The realization was heart-wrenching for a couple of weeks, but now I'm just so tired I want to let go.
I'm here on your board, with all you ladies and gents who want so badly to save your relationships. I wish so much that there was something to salvage in my case. I could love this woman again, but she'll never love me back. I just don't have the strength to do it for another 15 years. I'll die, literally, if I do. It's so draining.
I admire guys like you so much, who care about your wives enough to change and do so much hard work, who can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I know in my case it's just not my destiny. At this point I'm looking at the next generation, hoping to salvage the kids.
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
