WAW has WA History... im scared!

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HI
thank god i found you all. and this site....
Sitting overseas, in europe and wondering why i have to turn to an american site to find some help, an relaf...

History sort:

Girlfriend with history of WAW left me 3 weeks ago. I see now it a very common reason she is giving me...
Not happy, don´t know if she loves me, can´t feel anything, feeling under pressure, felling dominatet by me, lost herself and needs to live alone....

I let her go, tried not to beg, but asked if she thougt it was the right thing to do.. She thinks so... we are never ever gonna be a couple again, she is not even thinking that way, and not working on it, and wants me to say goodbye...

She left the same day she told me( day after my birtheday) talked to her a few time since. She wants her peace, wants R. to end NOW, and get the H. away from me.
The few times we talked i tried to be nice and fn, but i was so sad that i sometimes cried, and asked "why", tried to make her see all the good things, that she seems to have forgotten.

Sunday she was here" to answer my questions " and to pick up mail, and made it very clear she only did it for me. and that thisalso was a sad thing for her and so on. Left her key on monday and is comming tomorrow to discuss our little comon gardenhouse, witch she loves, and me too.

I hate it! i´m afraid she wants the house, or won´t give it to me, and wants to sell it.... afraid that if i tell heri want it, she says.... " told you so... you never in the first place wanted me to be a part of the house and your life...."

She wantet to buy the house together because she never has owend anything, seeing it in the rear mirror i can see that it might have been so important to her, because she wantet to have a part in it if we spilt up. She wantet to pay for it, but forgot to do so, only till i reminded her 1.5 yera after we bought it, she payed me the money.

what to do what to do ???

i don´t wnat her to hate me, or mistrust me... but anything i say and do is misinterpretet by her. All i do, and have done for her during the years wasn´t good enough, og the right ting. And thats what made her unhappy an unscecure. That i didn´t buy a mutual appartment, that we didn´t have kids yet, and so on... and i saw it as a common goal, but that we were on our way to that goal... and when she started to pull away from me, i startet to "fix us" and persue her and talk and ask and and and you all know the story.. and she became a caveman an pulled away and wantet her peace... and now she decided that the only way to get that, is to leave me, and get away as soon as possible.... only problem is that she has got an arpartment 100 m down the road, and that she seems to think that she has the rigt to some of my friends..

aaaarrgggghhh i hate it, and thinks it´s so difficult to do 180, be nice, wait wait wait... because with the housdecission tomorrow everything can go wrong... she reacts in such unpredicteable ways.. and always think that i wants to cheat her or always sees negative things in all my effort...

and i worries me that she left a few other spouses, with a clean cut, and never went back. She is too proud to admit a mistake or to come back....
and she has been hating her job for 2 years and instead of leaving the job, she left me....

thats a thing she knows to do ....