I did tell Dotty all of it! I even questioned her when she told me to hug and kiss her when I get home from work. I asked if it was pursuing, she said only if I kept it up if she didn't like or respond to it. Dotty also thinks it is "only" an emotional affair, not PA, so I need to fill the void with W that I had not been doing for a while. It all seemed to go against what I've read here. I really had to dig to come up with $390.00, I hope I'm not wasting my money! Don't get me wrong, she helped, but I don't want to do anything else wrong! I knew you guys would set me straight.
Sandi-you are right, of course. I am doing much better, but I still find myself getting worried that I'm running out of time. I am really working on that! I don't think I'm overdoing the acting happy. It helps to just go play with the kids. I'm teaching the twins how to play guitar, S3 just likes doing anything with Dad, mostly playing monster trucks, and my daughter is my princess and likes to make things-paper snowflakes has been a favorite lately. I have always had a good relationship with my kids and they are my joy and part of the reason I let myself slip and get scared. (Of losing them) I do go over the list I printed that you gave me, but it has not become second nature yet. YET! I will continue with what is working. Thanks to the two of you, again!
