I think an MLC might be part of it. She's always had impulse control problems. She had a very bad reputation in the town she grew up in (where we live now) and has been in trouble since childhood. Spending sprees, casual sex with strangers, etc.
She's not particularly attractive and I think she looks for validation.
The difference is mainly in the fact that she used to respect the home. She came home late, etc. in years past but she never crossed the boundaries of bringing home wine coolers, she hid her lingerie (which, again, she never wore for me) in boxes in the garage, etc. Now she brings it home.
We have kids, and I hate that they are forced to see their mother in this state. This is why I'm leaving. My kids are learning a very warped version of motherhood and womanhood. I get questions from my teenage daughter ("is mom cheating on you?" she asked...)
I confronted her about this on Sunday (Valentine's Day). She woke me up in the master bedroom at 2 AM, rummaging around. She spent several hours cleaning things out and hiding stuff she didn't want me to find.
Maybe I'm in an MLC too. I just found it all too depressing and on my birthday I snapped. At this point I just don't care about this marriage or this woman at all. I'm not mad at her, I don't hate her. I wish her well. I just can't be bothered to give a damn any longer. I miss the touching and affection. I miss the idea that I have a wife, but at some point I realized that it was only an idea. She has never been a wife to me.
Hopefully that makes sense.
M:40 W:40 2 teenagers ILYBNILWY: 09 January 2010 soon to be walking away my situation
