Still In Limbo Land,Not Sure What To Do

[HHIF]

I do think she is in MLC,this all started in her early forties,her Mom and Grand Mother passed away,two of her best friends got divorced,she started talking about needing to find herself and needing space,was told by therapist that she never had a chance to find out who she was,we started dating when she was 15,married at nineteen.

I was a very insecure a jealous husband even though she gave me no reason to be.I would drive her crazy with questions about where she had been and what she had been doing etc.I don't know why I was like that,it's makes me sick now to think about some of the crap I put her through.

I have been forced by her actions to work on me and work on GAL and not focus so much on her and to understand about trust and I am that only one that I can or should control.

So I have backed off of her and given her space,I have backslid at times and written her notes about our marriage and about loving her and being here for her.

I just keep waiting for her to wake up and realize that we have allot more good between us than bad and we can work through this and be happy again but she just goes about her business,goes to work comes home and makes dinner we talk about kids and bills but not much else and she goes to bed.

Like I said she is not cruel,she invited my Mother over for dinner this weekend,we are all going to her Dad's 80th birthday Sunday,her and I go to church together on Sunday mornings.

Friendly but no more than that.