Not married, but long term serious live-in relationship. We separated exactly 1 year this week. Saw him in Oct. when he came for the last few items he'd let behind. I had so much to say, knowing I'd likely never see him again. Didn't plan it, but had a terrible few words drop off my tongue. . . 'I still love you very much." I immediately regretted it. I never intended it, it just rolled off like a bomb with no premeditation. His response; a sarcastic "yeah, right. you love me. pfft." I felt tears welling up in my eyes so I just said goodbye and walked away. I've had months to think it over. I could see he loves me too. I just knew it. And his reply I think could indicate that fact. If he didn't love me, he would respond with a 'sorry you feel that way' or something. His reaction was more like he doesn't believe I really do or I wouldn't have done what I did that split us up. {some of you here may remember. it was VERY trivial to me, but was a breaking point for him} Anyway. Can't undo that. It's now been months later and as luck would have it some mail has come for him. I texted him and he called. He wants to pick it up tomorrow a.m. It's his b-day so I wished him a happy one and he said he'd forgotten it was his b-day til I said that. Anyway. . . I have until tomorrow a.m. to handle this brief encounter smarter than our last. I know I should look great, smile, maybe make him laugh if I can. Any suggestions from you experts on any way to plant a small seed of doubt in his mind? Is it ok to say it's good to see him? That he looks good? Should i just mention something interesting that I'm doing? Ask him what he's doing? Suggest a get together? btw, a few of my friend's have spotted him out over the past few months and he's alone. I still love him. I believe he loves me. I know we could come thru this if only he wanted to, but he has decided to stick to his resolve. I want to crack that resolve and see what understanding we can come to. I have yet to give up on the idea of us. Should I give him a bday card with some non-emotional appeal hand written inside? AAAArgh.
