Yes it is your life. But have you REALLY been reading the posts of other people's stories? They are all the same. In each case, the WAS tries to control the sitch.
When I found out my W was having an A, she told me to leave. I told her "hell no" and kicked her butt out. Sure you should have done that before, but that was the past.
Getting your self respect back has nothing to do with getting your W back. You stand up for yourself because it's the right thing to do. And besides if she leaves, then what? Are you saying that you are happy to not have your self respect?
What you're doing right now isn't working. Get that drilled in.
She's got your balls in her pocket right now. Why should she give in to you? You know right now she's fooling around with OM and I wouldn't be surprised if you went into the apt. that you found pictures of them together all over the place.
All the excuses she gave you about how she can't trust your changes, etc. is just a smokescreen. It's easier to point the finger at someone else rather than looking at their own faults.
ALL of our spouses have done it. We are all just speaking from experience. It took me awhile to stand up to my W. I had the same fears as you. But I did and things are much better between us. Are we going to get back together? Who knows? All I know is that I have control over my life and that I have my self respect.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
