feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

H came in again after 9...getting sick of him coming in so late all the time. I didn't notice at the time but he wasn't wearing his wedding ring. This morning I noticed and asked, "hey where is your wedding ring?" he said, "oh in my car I took it off because my hand was swollen and it was pinching me." Sell me that bridge! He did drink alot the night before so I can see the swelling but c'mon he has never taken it off before.

Anyway no real words this morning. He is ice cold. He was complaining about some stuff and said, "I don't even feel safe in my own home." I said, "you're a big boy that is ridiculous - maybe because you have to hide your phone and be secretive about what you're doing huh?" I know it wasn't a positive thing to say but I'm tired.

I have that sick feeling back again that won't leave me. It's awful. I'm going to try and focus on my kids this week. I've got a list of important stuff to do while he's gone so I'll be busy with that. I still have to locate the H of the ow and that is scary to deal with. I know sh*t will hit it when I notify him.

Guys...keep praying for me.

No 3 things today...too busy.